inner peace

I've been boring so I'm going to talk about studying and exams yet AGAIN. but when your 8am-11:30 pm is filled focusing on one thing only, it's hard to take your mind it and talk about an unrelated topic.

But I just wanted to say that I have been VEERRRYYYY HAPPPPYYY these days!! And I am happy that I've been happy! I guess you could say I've been at a plateau/had rough times for a while, even though I have a very fortunate life. My blah days have outnumbered my good days for the past..I don't know how long. year? Last semester was especially rough. I put so much on my plate that I didn't know how to handle it, and everyday was basically an emotional breakdown. To put it short, I was a walking (if even), basket case.

But this term, and especially these past few weeks, I've been nothing but happy. As you already know, these weeks are finals weeks. And if I am a basket case during the semester, by the time I'm pushing through finals, I have already fantasized through 100 and 1 scenarios about how to kill myself.

But not this time.

I may not be as completely on top of things as I like (ie. I would lovee for my exams to be even more spaced out.) But I have made a good habit of sleeping by 12:30am, waking up at 6:30 am, grabbing my gf at 7:40, and being at the school library by 8 am. Then we focus on our respective subjects till night time, with a few gossip breaks in between so we can maintain our sanity. I've gotten as much done as I can in the time alloted, and I've been doing it healthily! My mommy is the dearest. She's been making me protein based foods, with minimal to no carbs, as I tend to pass out after eating them. Because I've been getting more sleep than I usually do, due to regulated sleep hours, I have also been cutting out the coffee. My source of caffeine comes from the big mug of green tea I've been warming up my mornings with. So yay to keeping my sanity and being healthy in a typically super stressful time! Two down, 3 to go, and goodbye third year biochem!

I am so going to buy myself a congratulatory pair of loubs and the lv stresa after this is over and done with. T-8 days to a sunshine-filled summer! muahz xoxo